Electric

Today I was describing to a new mother to be what the connection between a mother and a child is like. The only way I could even remotely put it into terms is electric. It is like there is the invisible force always in the air b/w you. You can't put your fingers on it but you feel it. Like the humming of a strong current. And if you do the wrong thing the current will zap you. There is no feeling comparable to it and I am so grateful to have known that connection. I jokingly call Millie my live wire, maybe I was closer to the truth than I knew :)

Welcome Spring!

Today was a picture perfect spring day. We started out the day at the eye doctor for Wayne's checkup. The wait was short and he got a good report, his eyes are the same as last year. Then we headed to the mall for Millie to see the Easter Bunny. She did very well. She waved at him, shook his hand and said nice to meet you. I then asked do you want to sit in his lap, she replied,
"no thank you, I don't". Ha! Ok then will you sit on his lap for a picture, then you can get down. *heavy sigh* Ok Momma, Hurry. She then smiled and posed for multiple shots. The teenager at the camera with the bunny, said I am not supposed to let you use your own camera, but I don't care so go ahead. YAY! Our next stop was Pizza Hut, Mil's new favorite restaurant. Then the park, she went down the big slide a million times by herself *tear*. After the park we needed a little cooling down, so we went to Brewsters for some ice cream. She got her own cone and did a very nice job eating it. We got back in the car and she was asleep in 5 minutes :) When we got home we spent the afternoon in the yard. Wayne had to install another lock on our fence gate because Miss Mil figured out the old one. We played ball, and ran around. When we came in we made dinner and watched TV. When it came time for bed Millie asked if we could all lay in the bed and read books and watch TV. How can you say no to that? She made it through one book and 15 minutes before she was out cold. That leads me to now. Wayne put her in her bed and now we are getting some "me" time. Wayne is playing his computer game and I am blogging (duh). This has been a wonderful day. I am grateful for it. I will post her Easter Bunny picture probably tomorrow, when I do my facebook album.
Unitl later,
Holly

Hi Millie's Future Therapist, It's Me Mommy.

The last couple of days I have been struggling. I know that Millie is growing up and that I should be glad that she is developing so well, but the other part of me is trying to hold on to her babyhood with my fingernails. The thing that has affected me by far is surprising. Every night since she was 5 weeks old Wayne has rocked her to sleep in our room and then carried her to her crib. It has been something that he has cherished, but yesterday we were mentioning it was getting close to bedtime and Millie says to Wayne, " I not go to chair, I go sleep in my crib". I could tell it broke his heart but her respected her wishes and put her in her crib, read her a book and she fell right to sleep. It was a good transition into a new bedtime routine, but after I realized that she fell asleep without difficultly, I broke down crying. It just seemed like she didn't need us anymore, I know that is irrational, but I really felt it. I went to bed sad. I awoke at 4:30am to her crying. She was very upset and that is unusual. I waited for her to self sooth. But 30 min later she is still crying. I went to get her and after much debate she fell back to sleep around 6:30. Tonight when bedtime rolled around Wayne said do you want to go to sleep in your crib and she said no in the chair. I should have encouraged her to go back to the crib and try again but the selfish mommy in me was so excited. I wanted to step back. I wasn't ready. So I agreed with her and Wayne rocked her tonight. I know that eventually she will want to try again and I know that it will sting even worse then, but for today my baby still needed us and I am glad. One day she will read this blog to her therapist. :)
Holly

Millie's Birthday Weekend

This weekend was special. It was a celebration of the most beautiful, special, wonderful child in the world. My Millie. Her second birthday was today (or yesterday b/c it is past midnight now). The festivities started on Friday. I stayed home from work and we baked her cake and cupcakes, then we went for new haircuts, followed by a happy meal. When we got home she took a long nap, and Wayne and me went to decorate for her party.

Saturday was her big bash. She had requested a Dora party and we went all out to make sure she had a good time. She was wonderful, very grateful and polite. I told her I was very proud of how good she was and she said, " I say thanks, I like it, even if I don't"... Hahaha. Oh well that is a life lesson. She had tons of guests and tons of presents. She is definitely loved. Her grandparents doted as usual ( she has the two greatest sets in the world) and her Aunts and Uncles did too much. Wayne's sister, Millie's Aunt Paula ( and Uncle Al) drove over 5 hours to come to her party! After the party we spent sometime with them at Mammy and Pappy's. When we got back home she wanted to sit in her new car ( a gift from Nonna and Papaw) and watch "TB". I just love how she talks.

On Sunday, b/c it was her "real" birthday we had to do some special stuff. It started with balloons, a song and a cupcake for breakfast (while she sat in her car). We were then off to Chucky Cheese, Millie struck gold while there and ended up winning almost 200 tickets by herself. Then off to Walmart where she got 2 new pink fish (Daddy got them for her so they are special). When we got home she enjoyed the sunshine and she and Wayne went for a walk in the woods (ok Wayne walked and Millie got carried). After dinner she got her second cake. We then had a little icing fight, followed by a bath.

All in all I think she had a good birthday. I hope she did. I love her so much, I just want her to feel how much her Daddy and I are grateful for her. She is growing so fast (too fast). The other day one of the ladies at work was laughing at the excessive-ness of her birthday party, etc. My reply she maybe my only child and I am going to enjoy every moment with her and have as few regrets as possible.

Happy Birthday Princess, Mommy loves you to the moon and back!

My Baby Growing Up

So my precious baby will be 2 this weekend. I can't believe it. It seems like a flash. Recently it is also becoming more apparent that she is not so much a baby, but more a little kid. Her vocabulary has always been huge, but now she is understanding what she is saying. She is also beginning to be a big help around house, she can pick up her toys, take things to the dirty clothes hamper, put plastic dishes in the sink, turn the TV off, and other simple chores. I have discovered her being able to open all the doors in the house is not the greatest. But it was bound to happen sooner or later and with Mil it is always sooner. She is more vocal about her own care. What she wears, eats and the activities she does are all up for debate. Sometimes this is a burden but most of the time it is helpful. It can be an issue when a clothing item is not clean or a certain food has not been replenished :( But all in all I have to say I like parenting better now that she can communicate with me and can handle simple tasks on her own. I have always been an odd sort of parent. Most people love the new baby stage, I hated it. Most people say things get harder when the can walk, I disagree. So far each new stages have major benefits, I can't wait to see what I will think about the next.....

Holly