Valentine's Day Eve

(Millie making Vday Cookies today)

The magic of having a child is experiencing everything again through their eyes. Even small holidays like Valentine's Day can be so special. Millie is so happy about tomorrow. We have big plans to go to her story hour Valentine's party and then Wayne, myself and Mil will be going to Mariah's for a family date. She is already talking about her outfit and accessories for tomorrow. I love it!!!!!

Love With Last Names.....

There are loves that are so famous they don't need last names to identify who they are.... Romeo and Juliet, Sonny and Cher, Rachel and Ross..... but all of these loves have something else in common, they ended. Some ended in tragedy, some in anger, and some by the show cancellation. We base or judge our relationships on these. We get concerned when the passion comparable to teens ready to die because of a feud isn't in our marriage. We appreciate the New Love, but very few famous love stories are remembered for the duration of love. You don't hear of many movies based on the average comfortable love. I am guilty of missing that. Then you have weeks when your kid is sick, you have a bad attitude because of lack of sleep, work is stressing you out, the house is a mess, invitations haven't been sent out, and just life in general is chaotic. The kind of week that would have caused Juliet to drink the poison with or without Romeo. Those are the weeks that show you the magic of comfortable love. Those are the weeks when comfortable love becomes refuge, you don't have to worry about how you look, what you say, or how you feel. You can just be. You know that no matter how yucky life gets you always have someone else feeling the same way. It seems appropriate these few days before Valentine's Day to reflect on comfortable love, because really it is the only love that doesn't have an end.

:) Better

She feels better today. Praise you Jesus. Thank you for hearing my prayers.

And We Have a Winner!!!!

So back to the doctor we went today. I felt completely frustrated. She is supposed to be better. There is nothing "really" wrong. We think its just a virus.... give it more time!!!!!! I needed to scream!

She slept better last night she only woke up once and probably got 6hrs total. I slept better but my kid was sick so every noise I was up and checking on her. Wayne slept with her last night and they were always curled up together whenever I looked in. I got them up and we went to see Dr Fraser (Dr Chris) was off. Dr. Fraser did a test for RSV and sent us back to the hospital for labwork. Guess what.... Millie has RSV!!! Ok so maybe that wasn't great for everyone to hear, but it was music to my ears. RSV I can handle..... and her CBC just indicated she might have a secondary infection. So what are we gonna do.... zithromax and monitor. That I can do, that I can process! Poor thing vomited the first dose of zmax, but I work with some awesome people and before I left today I had another dose for free :) She took it better when I got home and mixed it with chocolate pudding. She told her Daddy that Mommy could probably give it to her tomorrow :) As I type she and Wayne are asleep again. She informed us at 7:30 "look guys I am tired and I am going to bed... and she did". Tonight I feel lighter. I am a label-er. I like to put things in a box. Tonight Millie's illness has a box. Thank you Lord!

Still coughing....

So Millie is still sick. Still coughing her head off, still running a fever, still complaining of aches and pains. There is one new development.... irritability. We are going back to the doctor tomorrow. I'm not sure what I am trying to accomplish by doing that, but I do know that I feel like I need too to stop my Mommy guilt. Sometimes I worry that because we are nurses we don't go to the doctor enough. We try to treat at home before we rush in. But this time it just feels like she is not kicking it. When we went to the doctor Monday she was pitiful, but tomorrow I feel like she is less pitiful but maybe more down graded to slightly miserable. I hope to get some answers tomorrow or at least some reassurance. But tonight I am looking forward to my first full nights sleep. Wayne is bunking with Mil tonight. I am grateful tonight for my hubby and for my wonderful coworkers.

Remembering Newborn Sleep Deprivation......

We have always been so lucky. Millie has been the best sleeper ever. Usually sleeping at least 12 hrs a night. That means I almost always get my 8 hrs, and if I don't it is my own fault. Well since Mil has been sick the last 2 nights I have gotten 3 to 4 hours. I know this is temporary and I am grateful not to have to go to work the following days. It did however bring back memories of the newborn days. The sick feeling early in the morning, the haze in the middle of the day and the sweet face of my baby girl. I love this little girl even at 3 in the morning. Please pray for her to get some consistent rest and please pray for her to drink and eat more today. Love you all!

Rainy Days and Mondays Always Get Me Down...

Today was not cool. Saturday Millie developed a cough. Sunday day she was still coughing, maybe a little worse. Sunday night she started running a fever, cough was yucky and she felt yucky. She fell asleep at midnight, woke up at 3am sick as a dog. She said her eyes hurt, her hair hurt, she was miserable. This morning (Monday) we were at the office (Pediatric Asst) before the doctor even got there. They did a flu test, strep test and looked in her ears and at her throat. She was all negative. But bless her heart the strep test set off some vomiting. Dr Chris thought it would be a good idea to get a chest xray to rule out pneumonia. So off we went to the hospital. Luckily we were able to go where Wayne was in the ER. The first xray showed a possible "something" so we repeated for clarification and the second chest xray looked "better". They decided it was negative but should be monitored. But my poor girl just couldn't eat or really move. She was so sore and tired. When we got home she was able to get a small nap and tonight she ate some pudding. Please pray for my precious girl. I love her so much and I am so proud of how brave and polite my little lady is. She is my whole heart.

Happy Anniversary To My Daddy and Mommy!!!

Feelin Hot Hot Hot

I have never in my life met someone more attached to their hot rollers than me. I use them everyday, sometimes twice a day. I know that those that know me find that hard to believe because usually my hair looks straight, but I promise it starts curled and within a couple of hours returns to its stick like appearance. But if I didn't hot roll my hair it would be kinky and stuck to my head. I can have my whole head in rollers in less than 2 minutes. It started in high school when I realized that if I rolled my long hair people noticed, I did it about once a week. Then in college I would roll my hair for church and on clinical days to give my ponytail some body. Then I had a baby and I couldn't use a hairdryer in the mornings, (Never Wake A Sleeping Baby). I discovered I could wash my hair at night, go to bed with my hair wet and when I woke up in the morning I could roll my hair and no one knew I went to bed with my hair wet. Well Millie will be 4 next month and with the exception of lazy days I can count on one hand the amount of times I have left the house without hot rolling my hair. Even more amazing I have only had to sets of hot rollers in my life, my current one I got in college. Well this morning my worst fear happened. I went to bed with my hair wet, woke up plugged in my beloved rollers and nothing, the red light did not come on. I can not tell you the panic that rushed into my chest. Imagine the panic you feel when your cars engine light comes on, well multiple that by like 10. I moved the cord around and the light came on, but I knew in heart it is time to retire my precious rollers. I contemplated learning to style differently. The idea was entertained for 30 seconds and I decided...... nope I am buying new hot rollers this weekend.