Full House

A few months ago Millie and I discovered a mutual love..... Full House. Yes the 90s sitcom! She has fallen in love with the same group of cheesy characters and because of that we have since watched almost every episode multiple times. This is one of the many things I have found to share with her and these things never stop giving me the warm fuzzies.

No Words....

On November 13th a precious child was taken home to be with the Lord. There was no long illness, no cancer, no warnings. She was the only daughter to a very sweet friend. She was 12 and perfect. I don't understand. I know it is wrong to question God and I know I am not privileged to his plan, but I don't understand. I have been praying since November 13th to give me the words to help my friend. I have been praying to do something to provide a few moments of peace to this grieving mother. I have no words. So I sit here struggling.

God, please help my friend to know that her precious child is with you and happy. Please allow her to have a sense, if not understanding, at least peace. I know her heart will always be broken, but Lord please help it to stay together. Please Lord allow me, or anyone the words to give comfort. Lord, I know she must be angry because I would be, but Lord help her to see she needs you now more than ever. Hold her God when she wants to push you away. When she finds a small treasure of her child's, like old photos, school papers, or long forgotten toys help her to deal with the new rush of pain they must bring. I wish we could understand, but I know you have a plan. Lord please help her, I will not pray for her to move on because I am a mother and I know she cannot. I will not pray for her to move past because I am a mother and I know she cannot. I pray for moments of calm during the storm and for the pain to dull everyday. Lord please be with her always.

Amen

Sunny Days, Chasin the clouds Away.....

The last two days have been so sunny and mild. After the last week of rain and gloominess the sun was a welcome sight. Yesterday I carried Millie's little table into the sun and she played with playdoh. I used her little red wagon to move her table. On my way through the yard Millie said, "Mom that is genius, I knew I got my genius from somewhere". I love that kid. Today we went on a nice walk, we found "fairy caves" and mud. I opened all the windows and let the cold air freshen our house. There are few things in life more satisfying and peaceful than an open window on a sunny day. I am just so grateful to have had these couple of days to recharge the batteries at the end of January. I wish I could jar the rays for the gloomy weeks to come.

You Know The Tree....

Millie: " Mommy, please do not touch this fireplace rock. You can touch the others, but not this one. You know like God had that one tree that guy wasn't supposed to touch. Well this is like that tree."

At least she is remembering the Bible stories....

Bible Stories

So today I bought a book of Bible stories. It was on the bargain book table at Lifeway. It's really neat because it tells the Bible in story form but also in the order the Bible tells them. Millie is so interested I read through several pages/ stories tonight and she still wasn't ready for me to stop. I think she will learn so much this way. Who am I kidding, I will learn so much this way. I was thinking while I was reading, maybe God meant for me to get this not just for her but for me. Anyway the deal is when we make it through the whole story Bible we will take Millie to buy her first "real" Bible. I can remember when my parents took me and my brother to the mall to buy our first "real" Bibles. It was so special. It is still my main Bible, well except for the new one I bought today, you know for Millie ;)

Blessings,

Holly

Library Books and Peanut Butter....

Today Millie woke up feeling yucky still, but by mid morning she was feeling much better. We decided since we had to skip story hour yesterday due to the doctor's visit we would head to the library today. First we were going to stop off for a quick lunch, Millie asked to stay in the car and eat because she wanted to "talk". We ran through the drive-thru and then parked, she climbed into the front with me. I said, "what do you want to talk about?" She got very serious and said, "preschool..." She then proceeded to ask a ton of questions all about preschool, what she will eat, wear, and how she will get there. Then she broke down crying because, she doesn't like peanut butter and that is the only kind of sandwich you can eat at school. So sweet. I explained first you don't have to eat peanut butter at school, they have other options. Second maybe she should try peanut butter again. We went into the store and grabbed peanut butter cup, everything tastes better with chocolate. She took a big bite and smiled, "I LIKE IT I CAN GO TO SCHOOL". So cute. She seemed to fill so much better. We headed on to the library and picked out our weeks worth of books. A couple of which happened to be about preschool.

Coughing the Night Away

My poor baby girl has coughed her little head off. Last night she had a terrible time getting to sleep and then she woke up extremely early this morning. I called work first thing this morning and scheduled her an appointment with Dr. Chris. She was so brave and polite as usual and was diagnosed with a sinus infection. Nothing a course of antibiotics can't fix. While we were out we decided to enjoy the pretty day. We had a nice lunch and even got some ice cream. Afterwards we went to a thrift store so Wayne could pick up some project supplies. It is a actually a very neat idea, he is looking for a case for his Kindle Fire so he decided to hollow out an old book and cover it in leather to make his own custom case. He was able to find an old book that he didn't feel too guilty to cut. When I asked him why didn't he just carve out an old leather bound book so he wouldn't have to cover it he said he couldn't cut a classic. He found an old text book on statistics, he hated that in college ;) Anyway it should be really neat when he finishes it. Now we are home resting in our separate corners. Millie seems to be fine now, at least she is not to sick to yell at me. Hopefully tomorrow she will be feeling back to her old sassy self.

Holly

~The Voice of the New Year~

Well we are half way through the month on January! I know the last part of 2011 I was a very very bad blogger. I am aware, you are aware lets move on shall we. Anyway 2012 so far has been very nice. I say nice because it really hasn't been bad, and it really hasn't been spectacular. It's just been nice. This week we, my little family of 3 (and even the dog), have had nasty little colds. Mil is coughing, Wayne has been sniffly since the beginning of the year and I HAVE LOST MY VOICE. I know many are rejoicing, trust me I have heard it all. Friday morning I woke up, got ready for work and drove to Bowling Green. I made it to McDonald's to get my much need LARGE diet coke! I opened my window at the drive-thru opened my mouth to order and nothing, I mean nothing came out of my mouth! How embarrassing, after a few moments of clearing I was able to get the poor girl on the other end of the speaker to more or less guess what I needed. I hadn't talked at all til I got there so I had no way of knowing I was voiceless. Well needless to say it made working the next couple of days challenging, but everyone was very nice and most just laughed :) Not many are used to me being of few words. The whole experience was a very interesting learning process. You can get so much more out of life it you are silent. Not silent all the time but a lot of the time. I have enjoyed the quiet. I have really heard people, people who normally are comfortable sitting back and letting me run the conversation had to actually think of things to talk to me about. I have learned things about people I never knew, I guess I was so busy steering things my way I only went in one direction. I have fought less with my husband, I think because I had to pick carefully what I wanted to try and say. Once I thought harder I realized some of my choices weren't necessary or nice. Hmmmm. My sweet girl has shown me more responsibility in the last few days. She tries to care for me and she tries to anticipate my needs so I don't have to ask. She has such a nurturing spirit, one day she is going to make a terrific mother, and anything else she chooses to be :) I love her. Today my voice is there, more a shadow of its once boom, but it is there. I am grateful and a little sad. I hope I remember to shut up more in the future, because I might hear what I'm looking for. Happy New Year~

Holly